Amazing and Unpredictable

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Baru sempet nulis lagi setelah berkutat dengan segala kesibukan dan akhirnya di ujung long weekend ini baru dapet bahan tulisan hehe........

Anyway (duilehh) laporan 6 bulan pertama di 2011 ini banyak kejadian kejadian yang diluar perkiraan seperti kalahnya MU di liga champion (halah ga penting).

Maksudnya tentang hubungan gw dan yayang ku (ezaa kali yayang) hehehe.

Pokoknya semua berjalan dengan kehendak dan ridho Allah SWT dimana urusan gw dilancarkan, dan ga terasa cuma tinggal 4 bulan lagi Finally I became a husband (cihuuy) 

Alhamdulillah

Semua berkat pertolongan dri Allah yang menggerakkan hati dri temen temen gw dan semua menjadi lancar

Ga bisa bilang apa apa lagi. 

God works in a mysterious way bener banget.

Just still can't believe one of mybest friend not only me tapi temennya dika juga, she will be my parents or at least bakal jadi orang yang gw anggep sebagai orang tua (emang ud tua bukan) sendiri karena akan menikah dengan orang yang gw anggep abang sekaligus represent my dad

From the very bottom of my heart gw ikutan seneeng bangett 

Wish u all the best and happy ever after

Selamat ya cella your dad will proud of you lo bisa buat nyokap dan ade lo bahagia dengan kegigihan lo, we're on the same path now..........

The point is, Great great Thank's

Buat dika, aku sayang banget sama kamu. Makasih ya udah mau sabar sama aku yang ga ada capenya gangguin kamu

Minta maaf banget sama mama yg dulu sempet sebel sama aku. Maafin aku ya ma kalo aku keras kepala ma

Mohon doa restunya dari papa and dimdim

Buat Keluarga besar semua, semoga aku bisa jadi suami dan jadi imam yg baik buat istri dan keluarga ku kelak, Amin 

Buat orang tua gw, fachrul,agam,satar thank's for the live leasson and becaming my mentor how greatful l I'am to meet such a valuable person in my live

Buat Cella, Selamat yach 

Semoga apa yang direncanakan dan di cita citakan terwujud, still can't believe we are a family now

Horee mama Cella.

I'am sure you'll be a good wife and a great mother someday amiin.

Silaturahmi yang selama ini dika, gw dan lo jalanin berbuah hasil dan kita semakin deket ahhh

Ga bayangin deh how happy my oldman will with you on he's side 

Welcome Mama Cella.

Love U all, there's nothing I can do to pay all of your kindness

Semoga apa yang telah kita lalui dapat memotivasi kita untuk menjadi lebih baik dimata Allah SWT dan dimata manusia

Amiin
 

Sent from my AXIS Worry Free BlackBerry® smartphone

Almost There

It' March already. Time is running and the clock was ticking, soon everything's gonna change.

I will became a complete man, be a husband of the woman I love so much.

Meanwhile i only can pray that everything's will gonna be alright and run by a plan, even it's kind of unpredictable but seems to be in control. 

Thank's to God.......

I was so damn excited but there is no way I can show my excitement in front of her, because I still a lot of things to figure it out, still long road up a head, and I don't know what will come next, I only can ask God to help me.

But the truth is I'm so excited and I cannot stop smiling and thinking how's that gonna be on the big day's.

The day's that we will be declared as a HUSBAND & WIFE.

Hope everything just walk this way now.

Bismillah it's March 

Already a few month to come

Love U Dika 

Sent from my AXIS Worry Free BlackBerry® smartphone

My Wedding is Coming Soon

Insya allah dalam waktu kurang dr 1 tahun gw akan menjadi seorang suami 

Everybody ask me how I feel about it, and I never know how to answer that because I don’t know the right feeling that I feel for it.

I feel nervous because this is what I’m waiting for years.. Little boy always dream to become broom, huh? 

seMetal apa pun gw dahulu but yes, I dreamed about it too.

Dan tidak sampai 1 tahun nanti insyaallah mimpi ini akan terwujud. 

Just like every dream come true, I still can’t believe it’s happening to me!!!

Then I feel exited, mengangankan kesenangan akan memulai hidup baru, dimana ga lagi bergantung ortu padahal emang daru dulu juga gak pernah, setiap hari bersama pujaan hati, saling mengasihi dan memberi, pulang ngantor jadi senang hati.

But then I feel scare, scare to believe and realize that this is not a happy ending world. Someday after the honeymoon our day will be filled with anger, tired, yelling at each other, tears.. 

Ooo God

Gw sudah melalui ini pas jaman pacaran, sometimes I feel weak and many times I try to give up. 

Bagaimana pas rumah tangga nanti pas persoalan bukan lg masalah terlambat jemput atau mau nonton apa?

Lalu gw banyak interospeksi diri, sebagai anak gw ini pembangkang tapi penurut, mksdnya maunya melakukan apa pun yg ekstrem, mau jadi ‘the player’ kalo istilahnya andrea hirata, tapi apa daya semua masukan dr ortu membuat ku tak berdaya dan selalu menjadi ‘safe player’. 

Not their fault, the blame is on me..

I think I’m just a coward.

Sebagai pacar gw juga ga bisa dibilang penurut, beberapa kali liat temen yg nurut bgt ama pacarnya, padahal dulu kita masi kuliah, masi jauh dr persoalan biduk rumah tangga. 

Nah si temen ini kemana2 selalu ama pacar, jalan ama temen2 cowo dilarang, jalan ama temen cwe ya apalagi, si temen gw ini nurut aja di larang2, eh pas uda kesini putus juga.

Wah wah entah berapa banyak momen remaja nan indah yg terlewatkan gara2 perkara harus nurut ama wanita. 

Singkat kata (padahal uda ngomong panjang lebar) I’m not that kind of man. 

I have my own mind, I have my own voice, I have my own feet.

If a woman love me enough they will know we will walk side by side. 

I do have a vote for choosing our way

Halah banyak gaya gw.. 

Pada akhirnya sikap ini banyak membuat diri gw negatif. 

Tapi pada akhirnya juga segala ke negatifan itu yg merubah hubungan pacaran ini melangkah dengan lebih baik dan dewasa.

What would it be if a man like me become a husband and also a father??? 

Siapa kah gw yg bisa menyandang 2 gelar yg harusnya dibebani ke lelaki - lelaki bijaksana itu? 

Sebagai pekerja gw ini last minute person, sebagai pria gw ini ceroboh dan tergesa2.

sebagai kawan gw suka gak peduli

sebagai makhluk اللّهُ maaf saya sering khilaf berkelakuan sesuka hati.

Alah alah.. 

setahun kurang sudah berkurang lagi detik ini, now I realize that there’s no turn back and I don’t wanna turn back! 

This is my moment, and I feel that I wanna enjoy it, akan gw resapi hari2 ini setiap detiknya. 

Perkara masa depan semua masih misteri, toh gw ga akan sendiri, nanti ada wanita pilihan illahi, jawaban dari seluruh doa dan shalat ku saban hari. 

Dengan menyadari semua ini, modal 1 tahun lebih pacaran dengan dinamika pribadi dan pendirian yang terus bergonta ganti, insyallah dikuatkanlah hati. 

Musnahkan lah ego berlebih dari dalam diri kami ya Rabb.. 

Jadikanlah rumah tangga kami sakinah, mawaddah, warohmah dan barokah.. Amiiinnnnn.. 

And now I feel tired..

This man need some sleep

Alone

Gimana ya rasanya pas taoun depan tidur ada yg nemenin?

Halah.. 

I feel nervous lagih..

Huaaoomm.

Antoher Phase

Okay, ini baru beneran setelah tadi ada blog diversion sementara hehehhehe

jadi begini ceritanya


Jreng jreng, setelah bingung memikirkan cara untuk ngomong sama orang tuanya dika, setelah sempat dipertanyakan oleh fihak fihak yang berwenang (ini apa ya sebenernya)


ya pokonya intinya udah ngomong dan mengutarakan niat suci dan luhur yang dilandasi Undang - undang dasar'45 (ngeeekkkk) ya pokonya intinya everything it's gonna be allright (kata bob marley)

Yap sekarang tinggal gimana kitanya aja (me & dika) mempersiapkan semuanya baik fisik maupun mental untuk menjadi juara (kaya reportase olah raga).


Ya pokonya sekarang kita sudah memasuki Phase yang baru satu level lebih tinggi dari kemaren dan tentunya masalah juga akan lebih tinggi dari kemarin (amit-amit) dan tentunya lebih butuh kesabaran dan ketekunan (hiyaa ujian omm) 


Tentunya juga dituntut untuk bersikap lebih dewasa dari kedua belah pihak, dan tentunya aku akan berusaha untuk menjadi yang baik diantara yang terbaik dengan kemampuan yang aku miliki untuk membuat dia bahagia..

berhubung nulisnya dikantor udahan dulu ahhh 


besok lagi aja heheh ngantuk mau pulang......

Thanks For Being My Side Dika
 

Love U

NU JOURNEY...... NU FOCUS FOR A FUTURE

It's already one wonderful year and a month, it's was really a great time to share happiness, joy, tears, and laugh.


It's not easy for me to entering her life because so many doubt and arguments.


From other side, sometimes it make me weak but in some other way's it makes me more stronger and gaining more power to struggle in this life, her support mean's a lot to me.

I just try to be by her side in every condition.


Being next to her was a very wonderful moments.


It's not making me tired even I've been working all day.


It feels like she can recharge my energy all of the tiredness are washed away. 

Now I only can pray and hope there would be no other Drama even that's sound's impossible and really don't make sense.


But at least I can handle it with a nice way like I always do. 


I hope she will accept all off my weaknesses because I realized that I was nobody, I' am just a man who try to stand on my own feet, don't have any support even from my own family (which family :P)

But I hope I've became a great Partner for her because i' m not like the others who have a lot of support and can handle everything in a flash, and for the future I wish i can be a good husband that full of responsibility 

THANKS FOR THE WONDERFUL YEARS

THANKS FOR ALWAYS SUPPORTING ME

THANKS FOR ALWAYS BE MY SIDE

LOVE U DIKA

fun & funny

Two day's of fun that's what happens in this week but first i think i have to say thanks for my co-workers Nadya.K for covering my job for this sunday hehehe 

Actually i should go to work today heheheh thanks partner (kadonya nanti aja ya pas lo merried).

Many silly thing's are happens hehehe 

Yesterday i was helping at Dika's house for some unplanned family gathering that's what she said (xixixixii) 

Starting from the preparation preparing the room cleaning the house and some unconnected work for that day was fixing the doors with her father .


First i was a little bit confused (grogi kali yaa) 

How can i help her father just a little chat seems can be a good opening to unfreeze the situation.

Her father said "this door's have been broke from the last year's familly gathering" wkwkwkk (ko bisa perasaan ada anak cwo deh disana :p) 


Not for long the conversation seems quite ok (masih grogi padahal wkwkwkwkwk) 

And then he saw me a knive that he made by his own hand and tell some story from what that knive are made of and the usage of it. 

Small conversation hehehhee. (mayan juga kali aja ntar kalo mau buat piso sendiri paling gak tau bahan baku yang keren sama jenis besinya wkwkwk)

And the time has come, the guest are come one by one until the house full introducing to each one of them even i already meet some hahaha 


But some other are barely don't know me, some are looking me with a big question on their mind and I know that the question is "Do I miss something here?" ehehehehe.


That's because i was very familiar with some of them and some are not even know me hehehe but I think that might be a good shock therapy ahahhahaa 

Thanks god one familly are not attend that event hahaha the fact will be a lot more shocking when that person also came


And the family gathering are not take long time it's only take about two hours hehehe 

But i think i know some and that's happend in every family.

I think and i hope i can handle with that the point is no problemo

And just a few hour ago the next gathering are with the FUPEI's .

I think it will be attend with a lot of the member but it seems like the opposite that only attend with some of the member's i think it's just because the time are not quite right Sunday afternoon and the next day some of them should back to work (iyalah belom cuti juga nyongg) hehehehhee.........

the venue are take place in Grand Indonesia just as usually a little chit chat while waiting for "Maghrib" to came I was starting to looking for something to eat after wasting time to figure it out what's best to eat my pick was fall into some fried rice.


The picture of the fried rice are quite interesting, seems good the name are also helping that picture to convince the customer that the fried rice are have a good taste the name was "Salty Shrimp Fried Rice" in Indonesian means "Nasi Goreng Udang Asin" hohoho from the name you might imagine about how crispy and tasty it will be........

well i choose that shrimp hahahhaa....

After the friedrice are served i just realized that something in this food are not friendly with me and the waiter just told in indonesian language "Nasi Goreng Terasinya mas. 


Just little bit shock and try to learn which english dictionary are use by this company

How come a shrimp became a terasi in indonesian language (sampe coba di terjemahin pake google translate) still the result are far from correct whose wrong and whose right..


I think they should learn some English or at least find some dictionary with words "Terasi" inside (emang ada yaa) hahahha 


Kalo kata John Lenon "Let it be" 


Kalo kata si bondan "Ya Sudahlah" terasi udah masuk ke lambung hehehhehee

Nu Journey

"Alhamdulillah" that's will be the first thing I have to say because i have got a new job already even some people doubt about my new job some say "is it better than the previous one?" or some question like "in front or in the back?".

That's made me a little bit confused. 

Is it necessary where or which department I will be placed as long as it "Halal" for me that's enough. 

Since I was alone in this world no backup from anyone even I can have it if I ask but it's hard for me to ask that kind of favor for myself but not because of my Ego.

But however I'm glad, happy and excited.  

I'm trying not to over confidence in this new journey because everything seems not quite the same as the old times.

I have to be more serious and more careful, because I'm not alone right now.

I have her so I'm trying not to failed on her after what we've been trough.

Past make me stronger but future not yet in hand that's why I will keep fighting and keep pursuit of happiness of me and dika.

I realized i still have to learn a lot from the old men listening to their thought, their advise and their experience.

Now it's time to make a small priority steps such as simple as saving money for me and dika further future starting with the small amount's :) And get my proposal to her. hehehehe

I hope everything will be OK and all I have to do is just live with it and keep praying.

Last but not least finally I will have my Sunday back,after all of this time never felt what's like is Sunday hehehhehe.... 

So I can be with her in all off the weekend even I will meet her at her "tempat Les" heheheheh :P

but that's OK.

It's all about a time management xixixixi.......

She's the one.....

By seeing this old picture (not old juga sih kalo fotonya tau kalo yang di foto :P) 

I cannot imagine  how i felt that day, happy, proud, and full of confidence.

But a few minutes before that my legs are shaking because that day she will made a decision about our relation hehehehe

That day 07102009 was the greatest day of my live not just because my birthday are at the end of that month.

But before that God already gave me a gift.  She's the gift., i realized that.

That's why I already made a promise with myself that i will take care of her and not to make her disappoint with me.

Even though I do realize i don't have a live like her.

She's a lot better than me. 

Smart, well educated person from a well educated family, but that's not going to make me felt like not confident with my self.

I realize as a man I should have a courage and confidence especially when I near her.

I'll try to reach a better level of my live and I'll try to make her happy with anything especially with love because that's the only thing i can give to her right now, a pure and true love.

I love her so much.

We've been trough a time together sharing good and comfortable time.

She always make me comfortable when near her and always miss her even we've just meet for a full day and when i got myself at home I feel like i want to meet her again.

She make me addict to her, addict to the love that she gave to me, addicted to her kiss, her voice, etc.

Everything inside her.

I adore her because she's so adorable.

Can't get my eyes of her. 

Never been so in love like this before.

Some might say we're same our face our laugh our smile (even my smile is sweeter than her :P) 

I have nothing to say to describe how big, how deep, or even how huge my love to her and how lucky I' am to have her a perfect woman.

I only can pray that she's gonna be my wife someday and we'll have a small happy family. 

I Love You Oma

Your the Owner of my heart

Past, Now, and Future

Past:

A few month ago I meet with this special someone.

She came out of no where from some virtual world of friendship turn out to be someone special in reality

We talk, we laugh, try to know each other

It takes a very long time for me to gain some guts to meet her in real life because i know how special is she highly well educated person, lovable,have a lot of friends... (eksis bgt deh pokonya) :D, punya banyak kesamaan hampir semua yang terlintas dipikiran dia terlintas juga di pikiran gwe...... (bahasanya ko ganti xixixixi)

But i know she will became someone special for me.

Someone I can carry on, Someone I can love totally.

No matter whats my condition or what kind of problem that been struck in my live, she will be the cure for that kind a thing

I have never been in love like this before

By that time i start to gaining my courage to tell her how much i love her, and I still remember that special time every chapter of it every single second and every single move that she made (termasuk ngejatohin tas, sama jatoh di eskalator) even though that time still have a little bit of disturbing moment (gara - gara kucing kawin) :P but the decision that she made was made my life change and heading into a better life


Now:

Now shes my everything

I do my best to make her happy, not only try to be an ordinary boy friend but more than that

Ii only try to make her happy every time even when i stand next to her or when I'm at work.

Playing games with the unbeatable thing call's "TIME" i wont waste every single second by letting her out of my heart, even when I'm busy or not, even only 2 - 3 hours we meet in a single breakfast i hope that's will have a meaning for her

Try to be the best person for her and keep my own promise with myself that I'll make her happy.

Even now i have some jeopardy comes into my life but I'll try to make her happy because she's the most valuable person in my life.

I will love her every time and in every way..... (keabisan kata2 deh :P)


Future :

for the future i only have 5 word for her

WILL YOU BE MY WIFE

Aku tau kamu gak bisa ngebayangin untuk bersanding sama aku dan aku gak menyalahkan itu karena pernikahan bukan untuk dibayangkan tapi untuk dijalani kita berdua

Sekarang aku mau jadi sesuatu yang baik buat kamu dan keluarga kamu dan aku janji aku bakal berusaha maksimal dan mencoba melewati batasan2 kemampuan yang biasa aku jalanin hanya untuk buat kamu bahagia.

Besok adalah hari spesial buat kamu yaitu "WISUDA".

Aku hanya bisa mengucapkan selamat (maaf ya sayang) karena aku gak bisa datang.

Tapi jujur aku seneng udah bisa bantuin kamu buat tesis sayang disela2 waktu aku, dan maaf aku gak bilang sama kamu tentang kuliah aku karena emang aku mau kamu fokus nyelesaiin tesis kamu dan aku bisa jadi bagian dari itu karena menurut aku hal paling berarti buat seorang laki2 adalah menjadi sesuatu yang bisa diandalkan kapanpun dan berkorban untuk orang yang disayang.

Itulah aku sayang, I can't describe how big my love for you by words but i prefer to show it by action to you

I LOVE U DIKA

selamat ya sayang aku seneng kamu berhasil

Great....great... thanks

It's been two month since we've been together.....

thanks for being a part of my live
 
you make my life more brighter from day to day
 
you make my life fulfilled with happiness



thanks for everything
 
thanks for your kindness
 
thanks for the love you've gave to me

Thanks ya Beruang

LOVE U

Amazing.....

How amazing she was based on my sight

She change my life and make everything just more better day after day

I cant stop thinking of her always miss her even we've just meet

I've never felt like this not in my life time

Even when she ask " r u busy?" i rather say "no Im not busy"

And when we were together on my day off staring her face all day long that became a priceless moment

Even she didn't dare to stare me in the eye :P

Kind a funny when she became careless and looks nervous

And i don't know why every place that she used to hang out with her friend that's also my favorite place to go

We have a lot of similarity even we used to work in the same buildings hahaha but not knowing each other (yaiyalah 46 lantai aja itu gedung :P)

And beside the similarity we have our differences not make us get into unnecessary argue but it goes to the opposite we just fill each other such as she hates a horror and thriller movie (gara2 kebanyakan nonton drama korea kayanya :P).

now I'm happy if this is a dream i don't want to wake up but I'm sure this is real so i want to make everything just like this everyday for the rest of my live, I'll take care of her, comfort her,and make her smile that's my job now

- Love U Oma-

L.O.V.E

mencoba menelaah sebuah lagu yang barusan gwe dengerin

L -> it's for the way u look at me. Emang sih pas dari pertama kali ketemu dan dari cara dia ngeliat, menatap dll, cara kita bertatap mata hihihihihihi. Malu jadinya tapi sampe sekarang masih ada yang suka kesandung kalo diliatin matanya udah gitu kalo ngomong gak pernah ngeliad muka. gak sopaaannn hehehhe but i still love u

O -> it's only ur the 1 i see. Emang gak ada lagi yang seperti dia di dunia ini. Cant stop thinking of her. Wah pokonya shes the 1 bgt deh.

V -> Its very - very extra ordinary. Semenjak kenal trus ngobrol sampe kita jadian dan sampe sekarang detik ini, semua jadi luar biasa,gak bisa diucapin deh pokonya. xixixixi

E -> is even more than anyone that you adore. Kita saling mengagumi diri masing - masing, i do adore her a lot

LOVE U OMA

She's The 1

Babak baru kehidupan yang baru telah dimulai.

Entah kenapa dia bisa membuat diriku nyaman dan berasa tenang.

Blom pernah perasaan seperti ini.

Rasa kangennnnn gak bisa ilang2

Kelakuan menjadi seperti anak sekolahan yang baru pertama kali pacaran, wahhhh pokonya jadi aneh deh.hihhihihi malu2in deh.

Gak berani liat matanya kalo lagi ngobrol, hihhi lucu

Kalo dipikir-pikir persamaan-persamaan yang gak diduga duga, sebenernya hal kecil tapi kenapa sekarang ini menjadi begitu berarti dan dapat membuat kita berdua tersenyum dan bahkan tertawa.

Tawa yang sudah lama hilang yang lama tidak ku rasakan, kini dapat kurasakan kembali.

Semua kesenangan-kesenangan,kecerian.

Dia telah merubah kehidupan ku menjadi lebih baik, lebih indah dan menyenangkan.

Rasa terima kasih tidak akan cukup rasanya dan ini lebih merupakan tanggung jawab untuk menjaga semua yang sedang dicoba untuk dibangun kembali setelah sekian lama kehampaan yang tinggal didiriku.

I wish she's the 1

= aku sayang oma =

Just The Two Of Us

This blog is dedicated to my beloved Andika Radityani.

The girl that i love so much and i care a lot.

This blog will tell our story and our journey. 

Love U Dika